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Just some sometimes.

Sometimes I really wish you'd not sleep like this. Sometimes I really wish that you would not leave me alone like this. Sometimes I really wish that we sleep together and be together. Sometimes I wish there would not be days like these because they make me feel a bit strange. Not that I do not like you sleeping peacefully, but I want to sleep peacefully too. I wish that you had woken up for a few minutes but I also wish that your sleep shouldn't be disturbed so I guess we can call it even. Sometimes I get so deep thinking about things and us that it seems impossible to escape that haunted house of imagination and fantasies. It gets wild. It gets catastrophic. It gets out of control. It almost seems real. It gets me you and ecstasy which is a deadly combination. The only thing it doesn't get me is the satisfaction that is is real because it is not. Sometimes I wish you were just with me, whether sleeping or not, but just with me. With me.

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