Singing myself to sleep.

Call me at 4 in the morning and I'll listen to those ecstatic giggles and possibly drown. Yeah, I'll definitely drown in a giant pot of honey, milk and vanilla, and possibly chocolate since it's your favorite. Your flaws always invited me in, even when my instincts didn't. I knew you'd the best and worst type of addiction the moment I stepped in, but I couldn't pull myself away not because it was so hard, it was probably the hardest but because I didn't want to. Somebody like you only comes once a millennium and the second I stared your smile for just a little bit too long, I knew this is my chance, this is my escape, my addiction and my way out. This is my muse, the walls of my heart sang and when I heard similar melodies from your heart, it was like the fourth of July, like Christmas, like Eid inside me. Everybody was happy, and I still remember how you smiled then and how you smile now. You grew gorgeous every passing seconds and I don't know what would I do without you. I have forgotten living, and I only breathe you. You became my oxygen and the reason my heart pumps. Maybe that's why blood rushes into my face and my heart starts pumping rapidly whenever it's blessed with the most spectacular of sights involving you. Visions of you in my arms keep me up at night and for someone who loved nothing more than sleep, I'm doing quite stunningly. Yet somehow I don't care about it, the only loop my heart comes to at a stop is, plainly, simply, beautifully you. I crave you and I'm going to get you. Let's curl up in a thin blanket in the freezing cold winter nights under the moon and warm ourselves up. Let me listen and inhale the air you breathe. We could watch the sun rise up or you could fall asleep in my arms and I'd probably stare at you instead of the sun rising. I don't know what would be more awe-inspiring, watching the sun rise with you or holding you while you rest in my arms. I'll take my chances. Come in front of me and take my breath away. Hold my hands and make it spine tingling. You make my nights and my days even if you are so distant, but the very thought of what you will do when you'll be here, near to me, within my reach, I just wonder what would you do then. The power you'll be able to hold would be so majestic but you're a queen and it'll be a walk in the park for you. So I sleep now, with this thought in my mind that you'll be here, someday, definitely soon enough, allowing me to take care of you. This thought is the only thing that calms me down and rests my body every night. So I give myself away to you, piece by piece, day by day, for you are the one who deserves every part of me and for you are the one who owns this. By the time you arrive, every bit of me will call out your name in the most violent yet calm way and you'd know where you belong.

And that's how I sing myself to sleep .