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Somethings to regret for.

This is something I wrote not so long ago.

And I woke up with a gaping hole in my heart and a rising pain in my chest. Heavy eyelids, red eyes, tired eyes, arising pain, oh the regrets. These all were the mere regrets of a night. What I should have and what I shouldn't have done. It was merely a gamble which turned out too big. Sometimes the other person's tolerance is the only thing you overestimate. Sometimes you are not that strong like you think. While I write these words, my stomach's misbehaving and I don't know what to do. I finally know the meaning of the phrase 'Crying myself to sleep'. Don't judge or anything but I feel really weak and fragile right now. Like I'd disappear if anyone merely put a finger on me even. Yes, that weak. By far, I mean it, by very far, this is the weakest and most helpless I have ever felt.

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